Sunday, May 16, 2010

if i had more time...

In the last year, i've always wished and prayed and hoped that God would suddenly expand the hours of a day-- something like making the earth bigger so it turns slower... or rotate slower in general.

depending on how one thinks about it, our days are actually kind of.. set. eternalistically, our days are also numbered.

on the contrary, when people say "i dont have time to do this.. or that", i always reply, "actually, you just DONT make time". perhaps its time to eat my words? yeah, i work a 40hr fulltime job, plus put in another 20-30+ hours doing our business (the higher side if we have full day wedding shoots on the weekend). and yes, i sleep a full 7 hrs at night, work, edit, drive to work, come home, reply to emails, and do the same thing over again for 5 days a week.

the more time i realize i don't have (or wish i did), the more i think about the stuff i'd do if i were more free in life. since i've been thinking about things i'd want to do if "i had more time", here's my list:

1) watch TED videos.. with a friend. then chat about it over coffee or cupcakes or fresh baked cookies. i think TED is simply inspirational, thought provoking, and life challenging. then, ill go and live life with a little bit more kick.

2) share a meal with someone i want to get to know better. no datey-date-dates, just a hangout. i'm a bit of everything, and particularly, a personable person. i like my privacy, but i also like to share my life, my thoughts, my experiences with another person. why? because i don't find connecting with people all too hard; everyone's got something in common. also, i find a lot of joy in getting to know someone just a little bit better. i feel like that's one small thing i can contribute to this world when i'm here on earth- letting others feel like a person because i'm interested in their story, their life, their interests and their peeves. for real. so many people in this life go through it being walked by, pushed aside, ignored, left alone. everyone's got a story to share, and all we gotta do is ask.

(photo taken at Oka's- a great japanese place in Oakhurst, CA. excellent sesame chicken with real sesame oil)

3) take portraits of someone. i've always believed portraits, if well thought and executed, allow a momentary glimpse into a person's soul. their eyes say so much, the way they present themselves offers something words can not. since i like people and getting to know people, i think portraits stems out of that liking i have for getting to know people deeper. (see point #dos).

(my pal jess: missionary, writer, photographer, stand-in-mom during college)

4) taking night photos.. with someone. i love nighttime. whereas some people say the nighttime is dark and boring, i say the nighttime is where some things really come to life. if you sit long enough, you can see the stars. or a shooting star. or nocturnal animals like bats and owls and Pooh bear. just kidding on the bear. i've never smoked cigarettes, nor do i ever plan on it. but i love watching people smoke. and i love how smoke travels endlessly and so creatively, and then suddenly disappears. same reason why i like campfires-- as i've said before to anyone whose going backpacking with me, someone once told me that campfires are nature's version of the television. you can sit and just watch the flames dance and dance and dance, and it'll always be entertaining.

(my other jess friend- awesome photographer and all around cool)

(some friends smoking cigars at a bachelor party)

5) going climbing outdoors, with someone. contrary to what people think, climbing is more than having strong forearms and rough hands. there's a lot of faith involved in the person who supports ("belay") you, and most of your faith falls onto three things: a) the belayer b) the rope c) the anchor. anchor-wise, there's a lot of physics involved-- angles, amount of force exerted to hold a climber and even a faller. then there's the technical aspect of climbing- balancing your body, points of contact, redundancy in the anchor system, rope work and rope care, all that jazz. but all in all, it's a little lesson on life-- working with others, having a little faith, and pulling through until the sun goes down. interested? call me up and let's adventure.

pretty much, life changes so quickly and i guess growing up is one big battle. finding our careers, following our passions, all the while juggling what we must do, and trying to squeeze in what we want to do.

oh yeah, and i like being with people. i know a lot of people think of me as a bit of a hermit, as i much prefer a lot of things solo (i.e. day trip to nyc, etc) but thats only my way of recharging. we're all created to be a part of relationships, thats what makes us humans so unique. there's something we can enjoy from living and breathing alongside others that cannot be obtained alone.

yet, i get so excited thinking about the unexpectedness that life may bring me to. journeys, adventures, people, roller coaster rides of all sorts, and i get so antsy.

as my friend kelli use to quote from a song by steven curtis chapman, "bring it on".

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